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Hating you is easy. Forgiving you is hard.

Every time I think I'm okay, something pops up that reminds me of you and it's like I was stabbed all over again. I want this pain to stop. When they say time heals all wounds why don't they give you a chart. You've had this much pain, it'll take at least xx weeks months years decades. Even with me in a happier situation now I feel like shit because I still let you make me feel this way. It's not fair to everyone who's tired of hearing about it. I hate this so much. So fucking much. My chest is tight, my arms feel limp and my hands are shaking. I thought I was going to have a panic attack just from seeing your stupid name back on Twitter. Why didn't you let me go sooner. Why did you drag it so long. Maybe it wouldn't hurt as bad if you had some courage and told me earlier.

God I'm gonna throw up. This is so fucking stupid.